I didn't want to go out last night. It's been really cold here in Sydney - ok not Northern Europe cold but cold enough, plus I've got a work trip to Malaysia coming up and have been flat out planning for that.
But my mates Starboard Cannons were playing a gig in Newtown and they're awesome, really awesome so I decided to go.
I personally need to thank Ash and the band for inviting me on stage to play my song 'Tomorrow in Australia'. This was the first time i've played with a violin and double bass and I think i'm hooked. The show was brilliant. The band are pros and Ash is one of the finest balladeers around.
But this isn't about the performance or the gig.
It's about a BIG question being answered. A question that sometimes keeps me awake at night.
The question was - do I belong on stage? Do I belong 'in' music?
I'm lucky that my boss pays my to travel. I get to spend time abroad and satisfy the urge to get out of my comfort zone. To experience new things. To find inspiration. But I also love writing and playing music. It may never replace my day job but it is a love and passion that I can't be without... But do I belong in a musical world that contains so many amazing, talented people?
The answer is yes.
I have a story to tell. I'm writing new chapters every day. Simply by living life. By doing things like leaving the house on a cold winters night rather than sit on the couch watching some shitty reality tv show.
Last night I sang a song with one of the best bands in Australia.
Last night I met some of the most amazing, beautiful people I have ever come across.
Last night I sat in a small room with a big smile on my face watching a great Australian band play great original Australian music.
Last night I held hands for the first time with a new friend.
Last night another chapter was written.
Today that chapter is becoming lyrics in a new song that i'm already falling in love with.
Sometimes when you least expect it, life answers a question you were too afraid to ask.
And I didn't even want to go out...